Hoarse>>>>>> unable to speak

Can not speak well for three days because I am losing my voice.....My voice gets hoarse...It is because of sore throat, well thanks God I feel better than last day....:)  

I realized today that when my voice is hoarse I could not speak better and stronger when I am working, I am too tired to talk much it so suck...God, Thank you for the voice today....I feel better now...be grateful for the voice,,,,

I've had so many words but I have no courage.....Its hurt

I am not a user, I’m a giver. I give until it hurts. I give until there’s no more left with me. I give, not use.

Cinta dan Benci

Cinta dan Benci (Geisha)

bagaimana cara membuatmu bahagia
nyaris ku menyerah jalani semua
tlah berbagai kata ku ungkap percuma
agar kau percaya cintaku berharga
tak kuat ku menahanmu, mempertahankan cintaku
namun kau begitu saja, tak pernah merindu

reff:
sungguh aku tak bisa, sampai kapanpun tak bisa
membenci dirimu, sesungguhnya aku tak mampu
sulit untuk ku bisa, sangat sulit ku tak bisa
memisahkan segala cinta dan benci yang ku rasa

apa kau mengerti ku sedih sendiri
tanpa ada kamu ku merasa sepi

tlah lama ku menantimu, diam sendiri menunggu
setengah hati mencinta, ku sakit karenamu

repeat reff

woo ooo ku sakit karenamu

sungguh aku tak bisa, sampai kapanpun tak bisa
membenci dirimu, sesungguhnya aku tak mampu
sulit untuk ku bisa, sangat sulit ku tak bisa
memisahkan segala cinta dan benci

sungguh aku tak bisa membenci dirimu
sesungguhnya aku tak mampu
sungguh aku tak bisa, sampai kapanpun tak bisa
memisahkan segala cinta dan benci ooo
cinta dan benci ooo yang ku rasa

I am so lost :(

The second month in 2011, I am so sad, had no plan at all...I am feel so empty after he gone from my life, there is no happy story, tears, laugh, all I miss...I  need someone to fill my heart..I am always getting approached by men, but it does not make me happy at all...Every time I miss him, I just try remembering his smile, waiting his call, coz I don't mind talking to him, whenever he want... If he knows it :(

I realize that we are not same like 2 years ago, I do not know him, entirely changed, If We force to be together, it will hurt each other. I know you are a good guy, I know u are uncomfortable in this situation...
Does Anger Make me Uncomfortable?Yes, it does...if he knows it...I hate to talking anger, At the first time we always support each other to forgive the others and remind each other. We committed to be a better person, it just a story now. How can I support him to hate the others, I could not..

 do it...I know forgiving does not mean forgetting. But forgiveness changes the way we remember. It is hard, I know...but I am sure u can..as u did in the past....I love you. so I care about you. Maybe I do not understand u full. but I always try it....God know hows my sacrifice for him and our relation, maybe when he find another girl, He would not find a girl like me :(

I want him back like the first time we met, I know you are not perfect man so do I, but at least we try it, not staying in anger all the time,,,It makes our relation broken...!why why why?

maybe we met at the wrong time in this life :( I don't know, but I will not regret it...I have felt happy with u...I really feel that he is "the one" for me..

pray for you every breath in my life, u will be my soulmate......Maybe we are broken now, but one day we can be glued together again...hope so.. 
Dear....Forgive with your heart. Forget using your head… And always remember to love with your soul....let's we try it..

I miss you already..... 
Every day I  pray for you. Til the day we meet again

I miss you love..

No boys........No Valentine......No sulking !!!

Valentine day isn't about couples only but It's about the love......

What if we were to adopt the idea that Valentines Day is not just for couples, but for everybody? "There are many ways to express their love. It could be to our friends, or to our family, nephews and nieces and other family members...So, you don't need to feel sorry if you are alone WITHOUT a boy/girl-friends,"

So don't let this day make u feel badly :)  Put a smile on your face and laugh....Tell someone that you love them....Do it now guys :)

No Valentine?????

If you are single, then Valentine's Day may not be greatest time of the year for you. Now I again pass the third worst valentine in my life....I try to think Valentine is not everything in my life...

Seeing other people celebrating their love can make one a tad envious. However, don't be let down. Lift your sagging spirits  by dreaming of your own happily-ever-after.