I am so lost :(

The second month in 2011, I am so sad, had no plan at all...I am feel so empty after he gone from my life, there is no happy story, tears, laugh, all I miss...I  need someone to fill my heart..I am always getting approached by men, but it does not make me happy at all...Every time I miss him, I just try remembering his smile, waiting his call, coz I don't mind talking to him, whenever he want... If he knows it :(

I realize that we are not same like 2 years ago, I do not know him, entirely changed, If We force to be together, it will hurt each other. I know you are a good guy, I know u are uncomfortable in this situation...
Does Anger Make me Uncomfortable?Yes, it does...if he knows it...I hate to talking anger, At the first time we always support each other to forgive the others and remind each other. We committed to be a better person, it just a story now. How can I support him to hate the others, I could not..

 do it...I know forgiving does not mean forgetting. But forgiveness changes the way we remember. It is hard, I know...but I am sure u can..as u did in the past....I love you. so I care about you. Maybe I do not understand u full. but I always try it....God know hows my sacrifice for him and our relation, maybe when he find another girl, He would not find a girl like me :(

I want him back like the first time we met, I know you are not perfect man so do I, but at least we try it, not staying in anger all the time,,,It makes our relation broken...!why why why?

maybe we met at the wrong time in this life :( I don't know, but I will not regret it...I have felt happy with u...I really feel that he is "the one" for me..

pray for you every breath in my life, u will be my soulmate......Maybe we are broken now, but one day we can be glued together again...hope so.. 
Dear....Forgive with your heart. Forget using your head… And always remember to love with your soul....let's we try it..

I miss you already..... 
Every day I  pray for you. Til the day we meet again

I miss you love..